... the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." - Hebrews 11:1
Having a dream and taking steps to follow that dream takes a measure of faith far greater than one's self. It challenges you at every twist and turn, making you question every ounce that is in you. It brings great joy and sadness at times. Each one a test to for you to consider your resolve. As I have just begun this journey, I find myself hitting a wall and wondering why it's there. But I just realized that if I look to either side of me the path I'm on continues. In other words, I have a choice to make. I can become practical and boring; or I kick up the crazy to the next notch.
Practical and boring is to trust only my eyes and do what others say I should do. This would completely be contrary to my dream and ultimate calling. This is giving up.
Kicking up the crazy is what I prefer to do. Whatever it takes kind of attitude. Like I said, I have only begun to create artwork. Like so many artists, I may feel inadequate, but I have proven to myself that I have something. Now it is time to shine forth to those around me.
This Friday is a big day! I will work through my last scheduled work day as a sub for 2011-2012 school year. And I should be hearing back about a position that I interviewed for. Like every day, tomorrow will be a point of change in my life, but regardless of the direction it takes that path will continue on and so will I. I will continue to grow as an artist and as a person.
